Never Travel Over to the Enemy Line

In The Bhagavad Gita, an ultimate battle is to take place. A battle between good and bad – a battle of our own mind – a battle of faith – a battle that not one of us should ever lose.   On one side of the battlefield, representing the pure and good, is the warrior Arjuna and God himself, represented as Krishna. On the other side of the battlefield is the sons of “blindness” and wicked ways, representing our bad habits, our fears, our internal worries and misguided thoughts and ways.  On the eve of the battle, Arjuna begs Krishna to take him over in his chariot to inspect his enemy line. He wants to know who is there, what they have and what to expect. Krishna tries to tell him this is not a good idea – but Arjuna is adamant. He wants to see. So off they went. And just as Krishna warned – it was not a good idea at all.  The moment Arjuna saw the other side he panicked. He became riddled in fear. He felt inadequate, weak and frightful. He saw faces he could not believe were there. He saw more weapons, more soldiers, a stronger army to fight. The only thing he gained by looking at the other side – was a lower belief in himself, conflicting emotions, confusing compassion with attachment, and of course tangles of fear.  Arjuna became so lost on what the competition had – he was unable to see all the blessings and skills he possessed. He had even forgotten he had the ultimate source of power – he had God himself riding in his chariot with him. Oh how quickly we can forget our blessings – when we are peering into the yards of others – adding up all our inadequacies, measuring ourselves in fruit less comparisons – or peering over with angered judgements or seeing things with tainted delusions.   The truth is this…..It is irrelevant what others have, say or do when determining your success or development of your own greatness. The only thing that is relevant is who you are, what you believe in, what works for you, and how you should behave. You have to focus on your own skills (often times very different than others), ways in which you can offer goodness to the world, how you can be a service to others, how you can develop your own character. It is irrelevant what others are doing – when you are developing your own authentic plan, your own secured personal belief system.   

Everyday you will face competition, you will face others that appear to have more, you will face others that judge you or even have unwarranted irritations or anger with you.  You will see it on Instagram, at school, at the office, even in your own family dynamics. We can quickly start to feel less than or irritated or even more dangerous “full of ego and better than”, if we are not aware of ourselves peering into other’s fields.   When we look at others to determine how we should be behaving or thinking or reacting – we lose sight of authenticity We have to be learn to be fully responsible for ourselves – regardless of how others act. My favorite line is this…….”Just because someone else acts like an a**hole – doesn’t give you the right to act like one too”.  There are fields and fields and fields of other people’s worlds surrounding you. But if you busy yourself studying their “plans”, or feeling agitations with what they have, or what they say or do – you will lose focus on the development of your own greatness. 

You have all you need within you.  It is irrelevant what others have. Your success is fully within your own being because it is specific to you!  And if you let faith and Divine lead you – even blindly into the unknown future – you will stay connected to the greatest power you shall ever need.   Trust in your passion. Trust in your belief. Trust in the gifts you have to give to the world. Trust that you are unique. Trust in your destiny, even if you cannot see it today.  Trust in your own story, even if they future paragraphs feel unknown. Trust in your ability to serve, love and be truthful and kind. Trust in your greatness. Trust in your blessings to come.  What others are doing – is irrelevant to your story. Close your eyes and hear the whisper of God….”I am in the chariot with you – what on earth do you have to fear”. Stop looking at other people’s fields.  Your field has all you shall ever need. Focus on your field and you will feel all the blessings pulsating in the now and all those blessings in process to come.

Trust in the Divine

Trust in the Divine is a simple affirmation.  Oftentimes the only affirmation you will need.  Now an affirmation only works if it is generated from your soul, not from your mind.  Many times, we create an affirmation from our mind and hope that we can get the rest of our being to actual believe what we are saying.  But most of time we do not. We struggle.  Our human mind can create a blockage from the affirmation.  Take for example something as simple as “I am full of wealth” as an affirmation you create in your mind.  You try to recite this affirmation over and over, but you know for a fact in your human life you are struggling financially, and you really do not feel full of wealth.  The mind just cannot accept the affirmation with the facts of the external world pushing a different agenda. An affirmation created in the mind and forced into the soul is not authentic and difficult to feel its powerful truths.  

When an affirmation is created in the soul, the power can merge into the mind.  Sitting quietly in meditation allows the mind to rest and hear the soul whisper words that can bring relief.  True relief. In meditation the affirmation is released from the heart and the soul and the mind will listen to its wisdom.  The soul will whisper the affirmation and the mind can fall into its cradle.

The soul knows things. The soul has the answers.  And sometimes the answer is that we simply must trust.  We must trust in a power that sees more and has plans for the current situations – even if the plans cannot be seen with our human eyes and mind today.

Life contains so many injustices.  So many unfair situations.  The mind knows this. Humans know this.  I am 45 years old and I have never had to become involved in our judicial system before.  I have lived, I guess, like an entitled white woman with a halo on my head thinking that our judicial system is fair. That it is responsible for making wrongs right and that they do in fact bring justice.  But recently, I have had a privilege of learning this is simply not true.  Our judicial system is flawed.  It does not make wrongs right.  It functions with high degrees of unfairness.  My situation prompted me to do some research and I discovered that our country has over 118 billion dollars in unpaid child support.  In 1975, child support was designed to assist mothers in the transition of divorces, but over the years the child support system continuously failed.  In 1996, a minimum mandatory support fee what set forth for parents who choose to not work or were incarcerated yet were required to pay child support – the fee was determined to be $215.00 a month. Fair – right?  Because everyone knows a parent can raise a child on $215.00 a month. My point is this…..the system is flawed.  There are millions of women who face this fact every day. And this is just one example of how the judicial system cannot make a wrong right.  So, what should a human do?  Create a mantra – an affirmation in their mind – knowing the world cannot always deliver? Knowing humans are flawed, injustices continue, and situations remain difficult.  No, a simple optimistic mantra on an Instagram post or a hallmark card probably won’t do the trick.  That is the mind just reading something.  Instead, we must go within and bow down the ultimate justice system.

The best remedy – as always – is to Trust in the Divine.  The Divine is the ultimate system. It does not make mistakes.  It governs always with a plan. It has a jury that sees everything.  When we trust in Divine, we are trusting in the order, in the plan with patience and faith. We trust that wrongs are turned to right – at its own pace. We trust in the purpose and destiny that was designed specifically for us. We trust if we serve the Divine – it will serve us.  We trust in times of need and we celebrate when we know it has delivered us a blessing.  We trust in its ability to keep us whole, even when we become broken.  We trust that our path is flowing in the right direction and that our purpose is never forgotten.  When we develop this affirmation in our soul – it will bring relief to our mind!  The soul will cradle the mind. The soul will remind the mind that all things will be rectified.  Even if the outer world, with human flaws shows differently.  The soul reminds us that Divine is in Charge and we will be taken care of.  This affirmation will bring the ultimate feeling of calmness.  Trust in the Divine – many times this will be the only source you can trust in.  For it is the ultimate King and Ruler of all order.  It never fails and it always delivers.

It has been my honor dedicating my life to yoga.  Meet me on the mat and feel the Divine presence.  It is here all things become right.  All stressors fall away.  All you have to do is stand on the mat!!!


Meditation is Sex

We love to be seduced.  We are seduced by food, beautiful people, luxuries, products, commercials, even drugs – almost anything that holds a sliver of possibility that we will feel a moment profound happiness – even if it is for a singular moment of gratification.  Seduction is everywhere – and let’s be honest…..we all love to be seduced.  But what if I told you that in Meditation – a pure and undeniable feeling of seduction is occurring?  And the seduction is so tantalizing that it is identical to Sex – yet even Holier. 

Meditation is the art of being seduced by the Divine Energy and not just teasing in union with the force - but fully becoming unified.  Where one cannot find a beginning, nor an ending to the dual forces; the forces become inseparable. The act itself creates the entwining of one.  All of you falls into Me; "Crave only Me, know only Me, feel only Me, breathe only Me".  If you can understand the experience in sex - then you can understand how to stimulate this euphoric experience within ourselves.  It is called meditation. 

There are many arenas in our life that a rational mind should be the driving force to connect with successful outcomes.  Yet on the other hand, there are a vital few areas in which the rational mind is a distraction, literally preventing us from achieving the goal at hand; such as in the arenas of spirituality, faith or love. During the 1970s Richard Alpert (also known as Yogi Leader Ram Das), along with Timothy Leary conducted a "spiritual experiment" in which hallucinogenic drugs were administered to quiet the rational mind and allow a spiritual feeling to be actively stimulated within.  Of course, this was a radical experiment - but it did open the doors to a persuasive debate.  Can the dark ways (sex, alcohol, drugs) assist us in understanding the pulsating feelings of divine peace within us? And if we agree yes - wouldn't it be even better if we could be granted these “high’s” without ever having to take a drug, purchase an item or even require a partner to achieve the same effect?  And better yet, this High we would be healthy, calming, beneficial and void of any “crash” or a heavy guilt ridden low.  

Meditation surrenders the rational mind and craves only the connection.  It is the merging of two breaths.  It is the quieting of the mind and letting only a sensation of euphoria to be present.  It is the closure of the distractions and the unifying all thoughts and desires into one single minded feeling.  And when you can understand this practice within the unity of two bodies - then it is easy to understand this concept regarding the merging of one soul into the Soul of Life (God/Divine/OM).  Meditation is Sex.  It is surrendering and allowing The Higher Power itself to seduce to a place of love and peace.  Why would you want to be seduced by anyone or anything else?


​BanokBanok Ban Jai

If I had to have a favorite mantra –


I think this may be the one.  This mantra was handed down to my Guru, ParmahansaYogananda from his teacher.  Loosely translated, it means “striving, striving, behold”.  The mantra is not meant to be a forceful mantra to encourage the harshness of work and work and then receive, but something more softer and kinder.  It is meant to be a lullaby when you really feel you cannot keep going, when you feel all your efforts are unnoticed or that you just cannot keep going.  It is a reminder from the Highest Source, that you are moving forward – even if it feels you are not.  It is a reassuring whisper from Divinity” I see you, I notice you, you will become”.

“BanokBanok Ban Jai”

holds layers of lessons.  The first part is to remind us that most things in life, and especially difficult things, require endurance.  There will be times you have to just keep pushing.  You will want to sit down and give up – but deep down you know that will do nothing.  So instead you must endure.  You must keep giving effort, you must stay with your morals, you have to try to keep believing, you have to try tokeep doing. All that is asked is to the best you can.  Nothing more, nothing less.  Where there is effort – progression is occurring. It may be small effort – with small progression, but something is happening.  The second layer of Banok is patience.  ERRRR  Patience.  We must remind ourselves greatness does not appear quickly.  It happens after endurance, and to be honest after lots and lots of endurance.  Greatness happens after many mistakes.  The mistakes were part of the education.  Patience is there to teach us faith.  True honest faith.  We have to keep believing in ourselves, believing that goodness does prevail and the effort does produce.  We must plow the fields, pull the weeds, endure the aches and pains and sit with true patience.  The type of patience that only comes with faith.  BanokBanokBan Jai

There have been so many times in my life I have felt like all my work went un-rewarded, that all my efforts produced nothing.  I have felt that I just could not endure one more day of feeling tired, poor or alone.  Or times that I felt like life was just plain old unfair.  But then I remember the mantra.  The mantra whispered like a lullaby, it is going to be OK, effort alwaysbeholds.  Hang in there, keep going, keep believing.  BanokBanok Ban Jai.    Today hear this sweet mantra.  It’s meant to feel good, like a caress from the Ancient Mother herself, reminding you to keep going, because you will one day BEHOLD.  And then… will truly understand endurance, patience and faith.  To everyone out there today that needs to hear this…..BanokBanok Ban Jai!!!!  I believe in this mantra, I believe that kindness and good character prevails, I believe in dreams and I believe in you.  BanokBanok Ban Jai

Listen to Silence

Listen and silent

The two words contain all the same sounds, all the same letters and all the same meanings.  Silence has a voice, it has sound, it has something profound to say.  Inside the center of silent we become calm, we gain a sense of clarity, we center the senses.  It is in this space of silence we listen. We listen to the hum of Divine. We listen to the inner swirls of peace.  We listen to our own energy and quickly we understand this energy as a force greater than our mind, greater than our worries, greater than ourselves.  To be silent is an intoxicating state of bliss that pulls the consciousness inward to rest its excess behaviors.  Today actively choose to listen.  Listen to your breath.  Listen to the inhale.  Listen to the exhale.  Listen to its calmness.  Listen to its truth.  Listen to silence.  In this space the mind can surrender. 


Today create space to listen – a space to be silent.

Before you speak – be silent – listen – then speak.

After you listen – be silent – use a space – then speak.

Create space to be silent.  Create space to listen.

This is ever, ever so IMPORTANT.


Please do this as many times as you can today!!

Sit.  Be very silent.  Observe while you listen.  

You will be amazed at how much quietness in your body, mind and soul this simple task will unveil.